Digital Rogue

Last month I did something impulsive. I ditched the internet.

In a digital age where self-love “pins” took the place of practices and curated “grams” illustrating specific moments of “living one’s best life” are considered more than one-dimensional, there leaves a lot of room for interpretation by those who are entertained by their understanding of your shortcomings. Social media self-publishes our intimate moments to our worst critics. These critics are people who see your life as a source of their entertainment rather than a personal journey.

Earlier in the year, it was brought to my attention that certain aspects of my social media presence were being interpreted and written into a narrative without my creative direction – because often life’s truths are less cunning. In a storytelling tradition, gossip is exactly that… a story. This experience has forcefully guided me to reconsider my digital presence.

There was nothing wrong with my social media presence. I, like others, would share snapshots of my life such as the hikes my husband and I took, global travel, trends I was trying and food I loved eating and cooking. Occasionally, I would welcome views to see the hard work that goes on behind the scenes whether it be how I was coping with my personal health or the stamina required to achieve my professional goals. Where this became tainted was when unhappy people took it upon themselves to squint through my photos and/or instastories and consider one small piece as a reflection of my entire existence including (but not limited to) their mild understandings of my relationships with family, friends and my husband.

I previously wrote about “The Milestone Race” and how some people feel that we go through life in a sequence. However, to expect our lives to run in a linear direction cheapens the complexity of living. Just because someone veers “off course” does not disqualify their story. It gives them depth and makes life that much more beautiful. Furthermore, it is impossible to gain an understanding of anyone’s trajectories through social media. So while unplugging my Instagram and deactivating my Facebook might seem rash, going digitally rogue has allowed me to stay present – a benefit that I will not exchange quickly.

By excusing myself from the social media rat race, I have had time to engage in those items that we pin on Pinterest in hopes to accomplish “someday”. While leaving the internet behind may not be a feat you are willing to take on, I will highlight a few life changes that have flourished in my exit:

  1. All the self-care bullshit: Since leaving social media, every Sunday I do a face mask, a hair mask, my nails and I take a fancy spa bubble bath. Not just hot water! No, I’m talking essential oils in the diffuser, bath bombs, candles and the whole kaboodle. It does not take a lot of time out of your day once a week to do this and the emotional benefits are to die for! So, go to Lush, get a couple of great smelling bath items and be present for this routine – I promise you will not regret it. Side note, my nails are the healthiest they have ever been.
  2. Reading: Remember books? Remember as a child when you would lie to your parents that you were scared of the dark and to leave the hall light on only so you could get another chapter in? What happened to that child? Since leaving social media, I brought her back and am currently getting lost in the beautiful imagery that is J.R.R. Tolkien’s words.
  3. Preparation is key: By not mindlessly scrolling through other people’s lives, I am able to set myself up for success within my own. Sunday’s I often do a bit of meal prep to make my week easier (e.g., breakfast, roasted veggies, lunch ideas etc.) and I am able to participate in a productive evening routine that includes preparing my coffee the night before. Who knew that my goal of waking up earlier relied on what I do the night before!
  4. Authentic intimacy: At the beginning of a new month, I schedule my dates with my husband and time to spend with my girlfriends. Seriously, I write it in my calendar book. I find that by doing this, I am inspired to finish my work obligations in a timely manner so that they don’t interfere with the time I spend with my friends.
  5. Gimme those glutes: You know what I did today before publishing this article? 20 minutes on the treadmill, 15 minutes of weight training, 30 minutes of yoga and 20 minutes in the sauna (where you can’t bring in digital devices). Instead of mindlessly scrolling through the beautiful women on #fitspo and complaining to myself that I cannot achieve that look, I just go ahead and try.

As I move forward, I will be considering how I interact on the internet a bit more carefully and one way I intend to stay present is here on the blog.

How about you? In a digital world, would you step back in time and interact differently? Share your thoughts below! I would love to hear them!

A Healthy Rotation

Dzień dobry! I just got back from Poland where I got married for a second time, visited my husband’s family and had a wonderful mini-moon!

The food in Poland was awesome and I was surprised at the urban food scene in Warsaw that blends traditional recipes using a plant-based approach. If you are interested in the places I travelled, I have pinned the stories on my instagram page. I am definitely looking forward to playing with and developing some recipes to share with you guys soon!

Now that I am home, one thing I have committed to focusing on this summer is rebalance. I know I sound like a broken record but it is something I really struggle with. I have started writing a lot of stuff down, such as “to-do lists” and of course, as I have done in the past, a return back to meal-planning.

As a passionate cook and wannabe recipe developer, I can’t help but naturally approach meal-planning from an eclectic perspective. A little guac here, a little saffron the next day, what can it hurt?

Well, unfortunately – even with meal planning – it can hurt the wallet. If you are not coordinated with your recipes, you amp up the cost of groceries by having to stock a pantry with an array of ingredients that can go to waste if you do not remake the recipe and use up the rest of the item in a timely manner.

Repetitive meal rotations have been written about in a variety of contexts. From the minimalist perspective, eating the same items daily can help eliminate “decision fatigue” as individuals can anticipate the same nutrient-dense and well-balanced items to help them feel good. If I know that on Day 3 of my rotation, I am having spaghetti squash for dinner, then that is what I am having. If I know the repetitive meal rotation, then my grocery shopping just streamlined as I pick up the same items for a while; thus, saving me time and stress.

From a dietary standpoint, repetitive eating rotations have been associated with weight loss. Again, this is due to well-balanced and nutrient-dense meals but also due to predictive portioning. If you eat the same meal plan which has been curated and well thought out in coordination with your lifestyle (e.g., working out, weeknights, shift schedules, overtime etc.) you can truly balance your energy. Your body can anticipate what it needs to digest. You know what you are eating is good for you based on a routine.

Finally, there is a financial standpoint. When you think about the foods that are in season and use them completely, you can help eliminate food waste and save money. Furthermore, if you have a meal prepared in accordance with your lifestyle, it can help with lowering the “convenience food” budget – as I have named it in my Every Dollar App. This is the money I save just in case I end up at work late and need dinner and did not pack anything. If I have a meal prepared along with my emergency protein bars, I can hang on longer recognizing that there is something easy to prepare at home.

So what does this mean for me? As I whittle down my budget with summer unemployment, I am looking for ways to stay healthy but also keep the budget tight. While Dave Ramsey talks about “Beans ‘n Rice, Rice ‘n Beans”, there is something to be said about repetition. The challenge is as follows, a very basic 2-week meal plan in 3 rotations. Breakfasts, snacks, and lunches will be very consistent and there will be a little variety in the dinner menu. Meals will be balanced considering caloric intake based on my lifestyle as well as balance in macronutrients. It is my hope that by taking on this challenge, my wallet, waistline and wellbeing will benefit. Furthermore, while trying to look after myself, I am looking to take the burden of complex meal-planning off of me for just a little while.

Would you ever try repetitive meals? Do you find meal planning a burden? Leave your comments below!

The Advent of the Smash Bowl

Have you ever been lazy? Unmotivated? Uninspired even?

Yup, that was me with todays dinner. Hence the development of the delicious “Smash Bowl”. What is a Smash Bowl you ask? Well that is simple. It is a healthy median between leftovers and pantry staples that have been hiding from view for months smashed into a bowl of deliciousness that you call “dinner”.

Today on the menu, we have the following:

  1. Leftover scrambled tofu from yesterdays breakfast.
  2. Frozen “Oriental Style” vegetables from The Grocery Outlet.
  3. Rice noodles that have been hiding in my pantry.
  4. Delicious Thai Peanut Sauce made peanut butter, gluten-free soy sauce, sesame oil, rice vinegar and water – all eyeballed in the food processor.
  5. Those pickled hot peppers that are almost done at the back of my fridge.

This was one of those meals where I try to reduce food waste and boy, was I surprised! To say it was delicious is an understatement! Maciej and I were in awe of the savoury peanut sauce and the heaping pile of stir-fried veggies on our plates mixed with spicy peppers.

A report I read from the Commission for Environmental Cooperation states that Canada produces 873 pounds per capita of food waste! That being said, I have been guilty of leaving vegetables to die in my fridge – a guilt I have been trying to leverage with soups, smoothies and the development of The Smash Bowl. The beauty is, a smash bowl can be anything that is starting to look sad in your fridge. I have also read about people who partake monthly in “The Pantry Challenge” – something I have been watching for a while and wanting to try! If anyone does the Pantry Challenge, I would love to hear any tips you have for it!

In other news, Maciej and I took a long hike today along the Etobicoke Creek located on the Etobicoke/ Mississauga border. The weather in Toronto has been unpredictable. The sunshine is deceiving as you walk out into the cold wind. You think it is going to be nice; however, I find I need to get my cardio going to really warm up, which is what we did for 8 kilometres … and a minor mud slide! Not as in the environmental phenomenon, no I fell in mud. But some sunshine and fresh air never hurt anyone, even if it is a brisk and messy one.

So what about you? Have you gone outdoors despite this long Canadian winter? Have you been lucky enough in climate to enjoy spring? How do you combat food waste? Have you given it much thought at all? I would love to hear your discussion in the comment section below.

Portable Bananutbutter Baked Oatmeal

Why hello there!

How is everyone in Ontario enjoying their long weekend? I definitely needed the extra day as I have been working a lot lately. To say that my professional life has been emotionally taxing is merely skimming the surface. Yesterday, Maciej and I were talking and he was really keen on spending time together. Today we decided to start the day with breakfast at a “ma and pa” restaurant where I caught up with a friend of mine from college. After, we headed up north to do some winter hiking.

For me, it is important to go outside and get some sunshine in the winter. Admittedly, I have not been doing this as much as I should be. I have been in a bit of a rut. Now, to give myself some credit, I have been working out regularly using the treadmill at home as well as the gym but it is also important for me to get some fresh air; I was long overdue. Furthermore, I need to spend more time doing things with the best friend I live with. I am often guilty of getting myself into such a work cycle that Maciej sometimes has to come out and shout with waving arms tell me he needs some attention LOL. This is a blessing because as the saying goes: “if you both are the same, there is too much of you in the relationship!”. So off we went! And I must say, I felt great when I returned home!

So great, I was inspired to do some meal prep for this week … and recipe development! I have always been a big fan of baked oatmeal; however, I find it is often a “Sunday Brunch” kind of meal.

My goal was to create a portable baked oatmeal that was lightly and naturally sweetened so that it could be made easily on a Sunday afternoon and quickly grabbed in the morning so you can eat it in the car on your way to work.

The inspiration: a peanut butter and banana sandwich … a new and adult take on a classic.

What did you do during the Family Day long weekend?  Comment below on your family to-dos and any tricks you have to get you through the week and if you try out the recipe!

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Portable Bananutbutter Baked Oatmeal

This oatmeal is convenient, healthy, naturally sweet and very versatile upon being an entirely plant-based dish. Whether you make it for a brunch or because you are a professional looking to make mornings a bit easier, this baked oatmeal is filled with protein and complex carbs to keep you full on the go!

Prep Time 15 minutes
Cook Time 35 minutes



Prep Time 15 minutes
Cook Time 35 minutes



  1. Preheat the oven to 375 °F and grease a muffin tin with coconut oil.

  2. In a bowl mix the oatmeal, baking powder, chia seeds, cinnamon, pumpkin pie spice, brown sugar and salt.

  3. In a saucepan over medium-low, mix the maple syrup, bananas, peanut butter and almond milk until the peanut butter is melted down. Feel free to use a hand mixer to create a smooth puree.

  4. Mix the wet ingredients with the dry ingredients then divide the batter using a spoon into the muffin tin.

  5. Bake in the oven for 35 minutes.

  6. Let cool completely then wrap each oatmeal portion with plastic wrap and store individually in a zip-lock bag in the fridge for up to 4 days.

Recipe Notes

*If using salted peanut butter, omit.

Nutrition Facts:

Calories: 207

Fat: 7 grams

Carbohydrates: 35 grams

Fiber: 6 grams

Protein: 5 grams

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Sleepy Time

Happy New Year, Readers!

My consistent wishes/ joke has been that I hope 2018 is more amazing than 2017 … which should not be hard given the bar is so low.

So how did you celebrate?

Both myself and my really good friend, Beverly, realized that both of our beaus were doing their own thing. Hers was hunting and Maciej is visiting his family in Europe. Upon this realization, we thought it would be a great opportunity to have a “girls night in” as well as officially engage in wedding things as she is my co-maid of honour.

When her train arrived, we went shopping and I started looking at wedding bands (and finally found one that I really like that has a fun significance!), she tried on bridesmaid dresses (and we finally settled on one) and I tried on my wedding dress again because … what can I say … I am so excited!!! It was such a fun day and definitely one of my most memorable New Years celebrations.

After we went to the cinema and saw Pitch Perfect 3. I really enjoyed it despite it being a hokey chick-flick. The plotline is in no way deep but when you are out with your girlfriend(s) and are around my age – as I found the context was very much targetted to us who are veering close to the 30 mark but not quite yet – it was a funny movie.

After the movie, we came back, I iced a homemade chocolate cake – which I cheated with a gluten-free box because I am recently over being ill LOL but I did bake it in my oven!! – and I made homemade vegan baked nacho dip for dinner. Confession: For a box mix, this cake is legitimate. Often with gluten-free, there is a weird aftertaste due to the use of potato starch or rice flour in the mix. With this mix, you cannot tell the difference between the gluten-free and a real cake … at least that is what Beverly said because I have not eaten gluten in almost three years.

We drank wine and I evilly introduced her to Drop Dead Diva on Netflix. Like an old person, I took a nap a few minutes before the countdown and when the clock struck midnight, we took pictures, blew noisemakers and then we … are you ready for it *Taylor Style* … went to bed!

With the advent of a new year, many people discuss their resolutions and goals. Some are opposed to this and others use this calculation of time as an opportunity to make lifestyle changes. I personally have eight areas I am working on in 2018. One of the lifestyle changes I am trying to make is ensuring I get enough sleep! I think this is an “I am almost 30 and all-nighters are not cool anymore because I turn into a raving bitch erm … crazy lady” situation. The reality is, I am very productive in the mornings and I genuinely enjoy sitting in my favourite chair before people have started texting and e-mailing as I watch the sunrise and sip on my coffee. It is a truly hygge ritual that I value.

In the past, I have overworked late into the night and I would often sleep through alarms, become short-tempered and extremely anxious with physical symptoms. During my undergraduate degree (oh the dawn of your early 20s), it was not uncommon for me to be at school at 6:00 AM reading and drinking a coffee in the library, doing courses/ lectures until 2:30 PM to 5:00 PM, getting back on the bus home and writing papers until 11:00 PM, sleep until 4:30 AM, continue working then go in for my part-time government job for 9:00 AM and occasionally attend an evening course from 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM that night! Insane … I know! I really have no idea how I pulled this off except maybe my age made the onset of the physical repercussions sneak up on me a bit slower. During this break, I have started turning off my alarm and resting up. At this point, I feel caught up on sleep and am slowly going to be pushing back to earlier bedtimes so that ultimately I am able to wake up well-rested by 5:30 AM.

One thing I am incredibly guilty of is sleeping with Netflix streaming on my iPad. I have read a lot about the negative effects of blue light on your circadian rhythm and I know this bad habit needs to be broken. Some of the effects include: a) suppression of melatonin production; b) not feeling rested after sleep due to a lack of REM cycles; and, c)  poor overall quality of sleep. The full recommendation actually indicates that devices should be shut off 30 minutes prior to sleep. I would love to get into this habit! 21st century me is already toying with what I could be doing if all devices are off for 30 minutes. Some ideas include reading a paper book and meditation/ yoga. But I recognize this is going to be a slow transition if it is going to work.

Truth Bomb: In my final year of high school, I was extremely anxious as I (thinking worst case scenario) did not want to return to high school for a “victory lap”. Complete nonsense, I know. As a result, I suffered from chronic night terrors for months! And these were vivid and terrifying. One of the times I was so scared I jumped into bed with my sister. This is when the habit started because I found that sleeping with the TV on stopped my night terrors. I did this for years – far longer than necessary; however, I was scared that my night terrors would return if I did not sleep with the TV on. Has anyone ever experienced this? Now I am at a point where I cannot sleep without the background noise.

So what do you think? Have any of you ever tried eliminating technology and ensuring you are getting a routine 8-hour rest? What were your strategies? How about night terrors? Have any of you experienced this?

Let me know and may 2018 be amazing to all of you!

Steph xoxo

What the flu can teach you and new year’s resolutions

Well, I have been taken out for the last week by the flu. Note the sickness and the “crazy eyes” as Maciej puts it below LOL.

As I mentioned in my previous post, a 7-year-old from the army of children engaged in biological warfare on me when she coughed on me. I have been living on a variety of smoothies because they are an easy and quick way for my body to get the nutrients it needs to fight this flu bug. A couple favourites include: a) All Natural Cough Remedy Smoothie; b) Classic Strawberry and Banana Smoothie; and c) Classic Green Monster Smoothie.

This holiday has been a tough one. On the one hand, I am trying to celebrate and on the other, I just need to sleep!

We often get caught in this dichotomy, particularly during the holiday season. When is it okay to say “no” and really put yourself first? I am guilty of this which I blame as to why this illness has been so prolonged. A few years ago, towards the end of my undergraduate degree, I remember listening to a Byron Katie podcast or YouTube video and she said something along the lines of letting the body be sick so it can fight it rather than trying to fight the sick and making your body too tired to fight it. At that point I had an essay due but I was not feeling well. Instead of pushing through that essay that night, I went to sleep and let my body feel sick. I did not fight it. I woke up strong and wrote the essay in a matter of hours that morning. I cannot say I was as wise this time around.

This being said, part of my New Year’s resolution will be looking after myself. I have started doing it now and the effects have been astounding (including, weight loss, and the reduction of physical anxiety symptoms – I sound like an infomercial!). Some of the actions I have taken include time for daily exercise (shout out to my good friend P who has been doing Jillian Michaels with me – until I got sick as well as my dad for bringing me the treadmill), time for things I enjoy (like writing on the blog and reading books that I enjoy with a cup of herbal tea on my special chair) and telling people “no”. I have learned within the mess of wedding planning, you have to say “no” to so many things *sigh*. But when you do it establishes better boundaries and in reality, it is your life you are living. If we have one shot at this, then say “no” to anything that conflicts with your values without any regrets. Trust me, it feels great!

What about you? Do you have any New Year’s Resolutions? Do you not believe in them? Comment below!

Cheers to welcoming 2018 with open hearts and minds. I have a feeling this one is going to be a memorable one!




WHY Don’t They Cover Their Mouth Mending Soup

I usually have a very strong immune system. My career all started in the preschool room where the unthinkable manifestation of bacteria is bred. But today, I was defeated.

I started the day with a bit of a cold but nothing too bad. I painted, I was outdoors,  I was a little fatigued but nothing I could not handle. Runny nose!? HEY, that’s just my body protecting me … right? Wrong. Because as that one child coughed yet again with saliva spray in all directions, I was taken out.

By the end of the day, I could not bend over and pick anything off the floor without feeling dizzy. Sinus pain, constant runny noise, and my head felt so congested I could barely tell left from right. To make it worse, I had a priority task that I needed to complete which due to the constraints of my life and an incompetent bureaucracy, required me getting from the suburbs to down town Toronto using our toll highway. The result of this being that I had to travel from Yonge Street to my apartment at 4:30PM across the 401 (remember in my last post when I commented that I’m a bit of a traffic masochist? YEA … well, then this was paradise) #sarcasm.

I walked into the apartment exhausted. I could not even look at my treadmill. I needed food but not just any food. I needed a homemade soup that pureed all the nutrients my body needs to fight this menacing illness and while also being quick to prepare.

There is a bunch of research that explores why bodies crave certain things. I personally have experienced it, for example, when I am stressed to the max … pizza. The carbs. The sauce. The oil. All a quick dopamine hit – usually followed by a crash, but nonetheless. For this soup, I decided I was going to be very mindful and think about what my body wanted. I smelled things, I looked at things, I had a full sensory experience (limited to about 5 minutes because I needed to lay down) and then, I put it in a pot.

To my surprise, this soup is filling, delicious, and I actually feel just a smidgen better – I still need rest but it definitely helped – even if it just warmed me up to the perfect temperature.

I envy Maciej’s delicious gluten-full bread 🙁

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WHY Don't They Cover Their Mouth Mending Soup
This soup is quick and easy during those times you are ready to crash (mommy's take note!). It is surprisingly filling and with just enough flavour to enjoy without being overwhelming. With ingredients like onions (mood-boosting), turmeric (anti-inflammatory & antioxidant), garlic (antimicrobial), and tomatoes (vitamin C), this soup can help nourish you back to health on some of the worst germ exposures.
Prep Time 8 minutes
Cook Time 10 minutes
Prep Time 8 minutes
Cook Time 10 minutes
  1. Using a soup pot, heat the stove on medium/ high and add oil of choice.
  2. Chop up 3 large onions. You can be sloppy here. I was tired and watery eyes were not my choice.
  3. Place the onions in the pot with whole cloves of garlic and sauté until the onions are starting to brown.
  4. Add the turmeric, garlic powder, ginger, paprika, red pepper flakes, salt and pepper to the onions and garlic and stir the pot so the onions and garlic are coated in the spices. The soup should be fragrant. Don't panic if there is some browning of the spice because that is nothing but delicious flavour. Continue to sauté for a minute or two.
  5. Shake and pour a can of full fat coconut milk into the pot. It will turn a beautiful yellow colour. Mix the coconut milk around picking up all that delicious spice that may be stuck to the bottom of the pot.
  6. Add in 1 tin of diced tomatoes and let soup simmer at medium/ low for about 5-10 minutes.
  7. Turn off the stove and let soup cool down before transferring it to a blender with lemon juice and blending for 3 minutes. Alternatively, if you have an immersion blender, that would be way better.
  8. Pour pureed soup into a bowl and remember that this illness too, shall pass.
Recipe Notes

Feel free to sprinkle some extra paprika on there. I definitely think it would look pretty. Unless of course you're too sick to function.

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It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

Well, here we are! We are in the last days of 2017 and I am sitting in my living room reflecting while listening to Christmas music with a bunch of candles lit.

So I am just going to come out and say it. For the most part, 2017 was a challenging year for me. I have choice words! Now, some people who know me are going to think to themselves “but Steph … this year was a life changer!” and my response to that is: YES! Finally, I caught a break … ON DECEMBER 3RD!! There were 11 heinous months prior to that! So let’s begin story time, shall we?

Remember when I went rogue in August? I was initially hesitant to share about this but I am ready now. At this time, I spent three weeks in Europe and learned three very important lessons.

Lesson #1: Self-Care

To begin, I needed to figure out how to take time to look after myself. This manifested itself to me as I sat in my future mother-in-law’s living room the first afternoon after flying to Dublin … catch that? … not yet? okay, don’t worry, it’s coming. Anyway, I was in her home and she was at work. Maciej’s mom lives very humbly in the countryside. Her internet access is extremely limited and being abroad, I do not have cellular access. The walk to the nearest town is 2 hours by foot. I did have some tasks to do – which I worked slowly on – but I was horribly jetlagged. Instead of engaging in virtual overstimulation, I opened the door where I could see the lush Irish fields, and I read a book. Despite not having the internet to contact people, it was the first time in months I did not experience the physical symptoms of anxiety. I was so calm. The air was fresh and my MIL – did I do that again? – has exquisite taste in coffee … and in hard liquor but that, my friends is a selective tale I will not share on here because what happens during girls night, stays with girls night! I digress. Sitting there reading while not even anticipating a phone call, text, e-mail, push notification … whatever … was the best peace I had experienced in months. It was time to take it easy.

Lesson #2: Work Better, Not Harder

The second lesson was that I needed a professional kick in the ass. I am guilty of overworking and feeling like I am getting nowhere in the process. After spending some time this weekend reviewing my portfolio in preparation for upcoming applications, I realized that for someone who has a few years before reaching the grand “30” mark, I am accomplishing more than average. Furthermore, I learned I really need to not rush through these processes! While having an end-goal in mind is important, I need to stop being so bloody anxious about the process and find a way to enjoy it because when I finally accomplish that end goal, then what? Retirement? That means I have spent the bulk of my working life in a panic when really, I do enjoy the work I do. The World Happiness Report (2016) expresses that,

Most Americans sampled daily in the Gallup-Healthways Well-Being Index Survey feel happier on weekends, to an extent that depends on the social context on and off the job. The weekend effect disappears for those employed in a high trust workplace, who regard their superior more as a partner than a boss and maintain their social life during weekdays.

(Helliwell, Layard & Saches, 2016 p. 30)

While working hard is great … commendable even … balance is paramount.

I am currently tying up some loose ends; however, come the new year, I intend to make it a focus to be more deliberate and organized with my time and tackle my endeavors in smaller chunks rather than adrenal binges followed by exhausting crashes post-completion. This will allow for more time to do things that I enjoy including this creative writing project and spending time with good people.

Some recommendations:

  1. The Little Book of Hygge: The Danish Way of Living Well by Miek Wiking
  2. Rushing Women’s Syndrome by Dr. Libby Weaver
  3. Minimalism: A Documentary About the Important Things (Available on Netflix)
  4. The Minimalists Podcast

These are a few of my favorites, I’m sure more will come to mind.

Lesson #3: Don’t Forget Your Love for Others

The last lesson that really took me and shook me was while I was lost in selfish “Me-Land” – which I needed for a while; however, overstayed my tenancy – is that while Maciej can be stubborn (so am I), I needed to transition from being my own frantic mess and his girlfriend to loving him as my evil sidekick … too personal? Yea, I’m uncomfortable but I have lingered with the “appropriate language” long enough. It’s not that we ever stopped loving each other, it’s just that when chaos reigns, it pours! I have to remind myself a lot that when he is trying to take me away from my work, it is usually because he wants to just be with me and that is not bad.

So, while 2017 started with me wondering who pissed in it’s Cheerios ( … sorry), it was a closing chapter in the middle of my life’s story.

That can’t be it? Can it?

No, I save the best for last.

On November 18th, 2017 I stood in Costco comparing coffee choices while Maciej was going bat-crazy wanting the latest, greatest iPhone X. His phone was binging as he frantically tried to place holds for pick up crying out in a panic “WHAT TIME CAN WE GET THIS!?” and I was like “WHAT COFFEE ARE WE CHOOSING!?”. This ended up with me in a large shopping plaza on a Saturday. Like the masochist I am, I simply love driving in shopping center parking lots on a Saturday afternoon. It’s my favorite. I kicked this man out of my car and told him to get out and head to Apple while I park as far away from civilization as possible. When I successfully found my spot, I walked in. He get’s his phone and I decide at that moment, he is not winning after that show! No, no, no. On our walk back to the car, I saw Michael Hill. I grabbed this man by the arm out of nowhere and proudly stated that this man was going to buy me a $10,000 engagement ring.  Tell me how he goes along with it and the poor customer service representative is like shouting “GET THIS WOMAN A BIGGER DIAMOND”. We, of course, were not going to buy, I just wanted to make him uncomfortable. Well let me tell you, Maciej was a little too comfortable. So in the car, I told him that I did not want a ring out of our budget and especially since I work in a job where my hands are exposed to the elements …. you know … finger paint … markers … boogers … the works. He calmly responded that the next week being Black Friday, perhaps we could get something nice in our budget. I worked that week and come Friday, I was getting hasty so I asked him as soon as I walked in the door, “Honey? Can we go shopping?” he said “sure”. We found a small jeweler who had the whole store on 50% off (*Bonus!*) and I sat while he put a couple on my finger and held my hand close to his face until he found the one. It needed to be resized and I have the car so that Wednesday I received my call that it was ready and I was there. Now, in the store for resizing, they have to check to make sure it fits properly. So I let them. I also told them that they should just leave it on there because I wanted to make sure it did not fall off as I drove home. And on my drive home, there was a bridal shop. So obviously I tried on a few dresses. Leave me be!!

When I arrived home, I put it back in the box and left it on his desk. This man played hard to get! But that Sunday, he was pretty insistent on a hike so I took the bait. We stopped for lunch and the outlook was beautiful. He stood up and reached into his pocket. I thought to myself, “This is it!” … and he pulled out a tissue to blow his nose … lovely. We continued hiking and finally, after having to climb uphill, Maciej asked me to marry him. I personally told him …

Yes! Actually, I will be honest I was nodding my head because like, I don’t even know, apparently I lost my words? Which seems unlikely, he had to ask me … “are you going to say yes?” LOL, I did! And I am thrilled. I get that some people hear the story and respond that “Oh so it was not really a surprise??” to which I am totally fine with because they aren’t invited anyway … sooooo. This proposal is who we are – two people who exchanged CVs on our first date. And I am thrilled for 2018 to be a very special year! And I know that 2017 was the year I learned that we are well matched.

So that being said, why does 2017 invoke such choice words from me? Because it was uncomfortable even though it finished off perfectly. What can I say, I’m a wimp! And no offense, but the cosmos totally owed me after that Saturn Retrograde crap! Would I redo this year again? Nope. But I am so happy with the outcome!

To you and your families, I wish you the best Holiday Season and may 2018 bring many great experiences, memories and as the Danish say, Hygge.

Steph xoxo

Caramelly Slow Cooker Apple Butter

Happy Fall!

Hello everyone!

To begin, I am aware that I have literally disappeared for months. I have tried twice to write a piece that curates my time away; however, I was never happy with the outcome. These posts are currently sitting in my organized file incomplete. Instead of discussing an intensely personal journey, I think I will only say this: the last few months have been the closing of a chapter for me in the best kind of way. I am very excited about my new chapter and moving forward as 2017 has been a challenging year for me. If I am feeling inspired, I will write a post documenting some of the lessons and ends I have tied. As of right now, I am still processing everything and am ready to move forward. Furthermore, I have absolutely NO INTENTION to ever leave the blog for that long again! To my lovely readers, I apologize; however, I do not regret my time away.

Autumn 2017 has been a warm one in Ontario! It has been warmer than our summer. While I love autumn and all the knits, colours and cozies, I am always a little sad to see our local farmer’s market up the street have the final celebration for the year. Last Tuesday, my partner and I decided to purchase a bushel of apples for $15. I would be lying if I said that I did not turn to him in disbelief and ask “umm, there are only two of us … can we handle these many apples without going bananas!?” … see what I did there!? LOL OKAY, I WILL STOP! He, of course, said, “Well, you know how to make everything edible. Therefore, I will delegate that task to you”. I guess it is true!? Let me tell you, these apples are sweet, tasty, juicy and just amazing with their odd shapes and little markings. But what the heck am I supposed to do with a million apples!?

The first thing that came to mind for me is delicious, sweet and smooth apple butter! However, I wanted to make this apple butter without much work nor the use of my oven/ stove because I also wanted to make apple chips. I had read in my travels on the interweb that you can make apple butter using the slow cooker. I was game!

This apple butter is not super sweet. It highlights the flavour of the apples rather than sugar. The long cooking time means that the apple flavour intensifies and creates a beautiful caramel texture that is significantly different from applesauce/ puree.

I feel that if put into cute little mason jars with tags, this recipe would make a lovely (and inexpensive) table favour for your Thanksgiving celebration with an appearance of hard work and time. Not to worry, I will not let them know you dumped a bunch of deliciousness into a crockpot and called it a weekend!

Wishing my Canadian readers a very happy and bountiful Thanksgiving weekend!

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Caramelly Slow Cooker Apple Butter
Delicious as an autumn fruit dip or spread on toast as well as a natural sweetener in baked goods! I have also used it in a balsamic vinaigrette recipe that called for apple puree!
Prep Time 15 minutes
Cook Time 24 hours
Prep Time 15 minutes
Cook Time 24 hours
  1. I do not peel the apples; however, if you want a lighter apple butter, peel them.
  2. Core and chop the apples into small bite-sized pieces. Generally, I cut the apple in half then cut each half into 12 pieces (4 x 3).
  3. Place apple pieces into the slow cooker with the sugar, cinnamon, pumpkin pie spice and apple cider vinegar.
  4. Place the lid on the slow cooker and turn it on “high” for 10-12 hours. I like to do this before bed because you do not need to do anything during this 10-12 hours.
  5. After 10-12 hours, the apples should have broken down and appear to be a lovely brown colour (it may look a bit lighter if you peeled your apples). Give the apples a stir using a wooden spoon then switch your slow cooker to low.
  6. Leave the apples to cook with the lid on low for about 3 hours.
  7. After 3 hours, transfer the contents of the slow cooker to a blender using a rubber spatula and blend. Due to the hot temperature of the apples, I open the pouring spout of my blender. Be careful as sometimes blending hot content can cause cracks in your blender! I had a glass blender break while blending hot soup when I was younger!
  8. Place the pureed apple back into the slow cooker and cook on low with the lid off for about 7-9 hours. Most of the liquid should be removed, and you should be left with a tasty and sweet apple butter that is smooth and different from applesauce.
  9. Let apple butter cool than store it in a glass container in the fridge. I am sure you can freeze the apple butter as well if you wanted to or if you have a canning kit, store it in a mason jar.
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Learning to Run & Menu Plan – July 31st to August 6th 2017

Well here we are again! Another week has passed and I must note, the word of my week has been: stamina. 

I have two things on the go: (a) my thesis is going through its finalization process (I’m so f***ing tired. I apologize but seriously, this warrants swearing); and (b) I have begun the process of learning to run.

I have come to realize that writing a thesis is literally like building a baby. It takes months out of your life. You cannot properly be a friend, a family member or a girlfriend because you are so tired building this thing as you devote every. waking. hour. to it. (Trust me, if you want to know who your real friends are, go to graduate school). You laugh and get excited during the milestone triumphs (you know, the “EUREKA!” moments). You cry when you cannot take the process of building the parts to your argument anymore. Heaven forbid you think you have a final product only to be let down because it is not ready yet as it is returned to you with cold-hard edits by your lovely partner.  I am mentally exhausted and realistically, I am fed up. I want it submitted so I no longer need to be that awful friend who ditches every occasion or the crappy aunt whose spider-nephew hangs-up FaceTime on you because he’s pissed off you won’t come over and play (even though you really want to). I am nearing completion at this point and more importantly I am on my role. I realized yesterday that there are only a couple weeks left until I am leaving for my trip to Dublin to attend a conference and that hit me hard. I really need to finish this all up and get some additional work done as well as prepare for my presentation abroad. There is no rest for the weary, I’m afraid.

On another note, I promised myself I would learn to run and this week, I started! My stats obviously were not great. Maciej poked fun at my average of 7:04 min/km (he is half of that!!); however, I saw a quote about running that stuck with me given the challenges I have been facing:

It does not get easier, you just get stronger.

Realistically, this is true for many facets of life in addition to it encouraging me to keep up the physical fitness (something I have not been great about during university if you have read my about page).

With my thesis, at first it completely sucked; however, now that I know what I am doing, I have my role. I got stronger.

With aspects of love in my life, the first time I fell in love, it completely sucked – a whirlwind of poor decision making, really; however, now that I know how to remain true to myself with another person, I am happily in love. I got stronger.

When I started a new job and was thrusted with responsibility that no post-secondary institution can prepare you for, I panicked. I wanted to leave. However, now that I pushed myself to learn from others was humbled to reach out to those who have more experience than I do, I made a very good name for myself and carry a strong reputation. I got stronger.

When I had to bravely stand up for someone who could not stand up for themselves earlier this year and face the wrath that triggered my anxiety beyond anything I had ever experienced to the point I did not want to work again, I pushed through it and I am still ready to stand up for those who need a voice. I got stronger.

Something I have come to learn is that real success is not sheer luck. It is being malleable to your surroundings and willing to be uncomfortable while you push forward for the best version of yourself. And with that, I have this weeks meal plan to keep me fueled as I run as well as keep my mind healthy and nourished as I keep climbing these mountains.

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Admittedly, breakfast this week is (albeit delicious) but very monotone. My reason for this is, I find that the iron and protein in the green monster smoothies are keeping me energized and focused while I write. I mean, like, I am totally strong and not snacking out of boredom when I have one in the morning. They are seriously magic. Additionally, I need a quick breakfast because my brain works best in the morning at extensive mental work and I am better at physical work in the evening. As a result, I aim to quickly eat a healthy and nutritious breakfast but get straight to work so I can get the most out of my day. Hence, cereal and smoothies it is!

Additionally, my dinners are very summery. Usually by August, I have no patience for full-on meals and tend to opt for BBQ type meals, fruits and salad. I have not tried the Smoky Vegan Carrot Dogs; however, I have heard about people in the vegan community making these carrot dog things and I figured after smelling the barbeque smell in my neighbourhood that it would be a fun recipe to try. I will definitely let you know how it goes!

While it is not listed in my meal plan, I have been keeping up with my water intake and the results are amazing. I have no idea how I let myself get so dehydrated because the more water I drink, the better I feel. I find I am not snacking as often, my thought processes are clearer, I feel stronger and way healthier both physically and mentally. Honestly, I really suggest everyone to try and increase their water intake because it is difficult to put in words, you just feel amazing when you do. It makes a huge difference. I will be starting up a new challenge this week, so stay tuned for that!

If you missed it last week, the blue items shown in the meal plan are linked to other blog posts (as well as a few non-blue items) which I will list below:




**Lightened-Up Crispy Baked Fries from: The Oh She Glows Cookbook – Vegan Recipes to Glow from the Inside Out by Angela Liddon p. 203


And there you have it! Very simple, mostly quick and light meals to accommodate my hectic work schedule as well as the warm weather.

Wishing everyone a productive week in hopes that you too, will become stronger no matter what challenges you face!